The "official" weigh-in and Monday.

Well, my official weigh-in was 157.2lbs. I'm down 0.8lbs. Losing weight around here is a slow go because I keep sabotaging myself. And watching how it affects my calorie deficits (one or two bad days a week) its clear to see why for years I didn't lose anything. All those times I dieted and binged and never really lost and used to get so mad because at least I was doing good part of the time...I'm grateful that I did good some of the time or I would have been a much heavier person. And as we've all figured out, its not usually a one day occurrence. My binges seem to last a couple of days at the least. But thankfully I went to the gym several times last week and that allowed me to still lose what I did.

At least I'm still losing weight. And that's the bottom line.

I've been really frustrated and angry about the house selling situation lately, and it causes me to throw up my hands and not care about my diet. My dream house, the one that was actually obtainable, sold before we could sell ours. Again. And I'm having a hard time keeping my self reeled in with the disappointment. I know that things like that are more exaggerated than they should be, but I have such little tolerance for disappointment anymore. And frankly I am so DONE with living in this house and I just want to get out and move on with our lives.

Its March. Thank GOD!! There is still snow on the ground, and I know there have been many years where it snowed here in mid to late April, but I feel desperate for summer to arrive. I miss my walks. I miss the quiet and serenity. I miss my audio books. I'm just so not a gym girl. I love boxing, but that's about it. I'd so much rather be walking, especially since I enjoy it, and I swear I burn the same calories.

Anyhow, I'm just feeling blah today. For the past several days, I guess. I really want a soda (and a little vodka). I've been staying up way too late, but this morning I slept in (thanks to Sesame Street!!). I'm not feeling refreshed though. I'm feeling sore and groggy and like doo-doo. I need to do laundry (every blasted week!!) and I need to go to the grocery store. Lent starts on Wednesday, and I'm hoping it very much alters the way we eat around here for the next 6 weeks....

I had a lot more of a post written, but to add to my mood Blogger decided to puke and I lost it all. And frankly now I'm in too bad of a mood to rewrite it. Its probably better that way.

Thanks a lot Blogger!